He's with someone. I guess a part of me should feel happy that I'm freed from all these thoughts that distressed me before. But it's a bit sad. I was gathering the courage to pursue something for once. And it's called off by a moment of realization.
Actually, change this mixed feelings to the decline towards sadness. I'm disappointed in my luck. And right before Valentine's day and right after I start getting in touch with my romantic feelings that I never had for such a long time. Everything blows over just so quickly. I wish I can click unfriend and erase any interaction I had. And it's no one's fault except for mine because I let my feelings acclimate quickly because it was a good feeling to like someone. Why is this so hard? I thought this is supposed to be easy in college. I really thought I would have someone next to me right now. I don't want to wish anything bad coming upon them though I know a little voice is assuring me that what they have is long distance. Isn't that horrible? If it just comes down to me wanting to be with him, then I'm not mature enough to be with anyone. I wouldn't want unhappiness on the person I like just so it can give me what I want. And how long do I know the person? Barely a week if you add up all the times we've been together. It's not worth it to be sad. It's just this disappointment. It'll go away in a few days. As for now, I should just start studying. Or something.
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