Aware

My mind's been off somewhere lately. I'm forgetting things, floating in my own world, and ignoring the uncertainty and danger around me. Yeah I really need to focus on myself right now, starting with being aware of my actions and my surroundings. I can't be too confident that bad things don't happen by the cause of others or my own stupidity. But at the same time, I shouldn't judge myself too harshly and strain myself. Let loose but be smart. Find a good balance in feeling comfortable with myself and where I am and being cautious. I have to look out for myself now that I am on my own. I am sure the mistakes I make are meant for learning but that is if I actually learned and change what is flawed.

The basic ways I can improve myself are through my focus in school and my fitness. But beyond that, I need to fix my attitude towards my family and keep a wise distance from the groups of friends and acquaintances that I drifted through day by day. After all, these people don't know what's best for me and are certainly not looking out for the best of me like my family does. Furthermore, I need to continue to uphold my responsibilities and stay on top of everything that is important for me. Now in saying all these goals, I must seem like a very uptight person, and the fact is I am. But I think it's only by my nature to find discipline in the things that matter to me. Otherwise, I am usually quite spontaneous and opened up for the excitement that life brings.

Ok. Back to studying for this calculus midterm tomorrow. I haven't actually started studying yet and it's already twenty until eleven. For some reasons, I am not stressed at all. But then again, it might be the overconfidence in me that is hindering my potential success. With that said, till another day.